Love for orphans and children

            By: Wina SW1

Do you have parents? Do you care about them? Do they care and love you? Or you never care about them, because you do not satisfied with them. You don’t like the way they treat you?
            I have parents. I love them. They love me so much, although I always make them tired with my actions. They always open they heard and hand for me. Their loves seem never ending and always full. Whatever and however I am they love me. Sometime it makes me cry. I don’t know how to give back to them, all their kindness and loves. Yeah, a kid never able to payback all their parents love and time.

How about you?

Do you still have both of your parents? Do they care about you so much?

If yes, you are one of the lucky kids in this world. Although you cannot pay back what they had gave to you, do not mind. What you should do is to love them and respect them.

Do you know, more than 200,000,000 children in this world lost their parents (both of them, father only or mother only)? They became orphans because of many factors. It caused by conflicts, wars, terror, accident, diseases, disaster, divorces, etc. Some of the children in the world were born as an expected child. Their parents through them away and make them have no parents and family.

The orphans are not lucky as we are. They want to meet their parents, but they have no chances. Some of them already meet their ‘new-parents’ or foster parents, but it wills never the same. They miss to share, laugh, talking, playing, and spending their time together with their parents. Sometime they miss their parents voice and hugs.

They want to eat dinner together. They want their parent send them to school and pick them after school finish. They want their parents help them to do their home works. They want their parents play together and go to somewhere together. They want their parents to give them money when they want to buy toys, candies, ice cream, bakso or something else. They want their parents beside them when they go to bed, when they have a nightmare, when they afraid about something. They want their parents’ hugs and supports. They want to pray and learn something with them.

Could you imagine, how sad and loneliness a kid without parents love and cares?

Money could not buy it.

Because they have no parents, they should face anything alone. They feel empty when they saw other children laughing and spending time with parents. They feel sad and want to cry, but it will never bring their parents back.

Some of them have to work hard to survive. Some of them could not continue their study, because they are very poor. Some of them have to be parents for their younger brothers or sisters. Some of them have to live in the darkness as beggars, homeless or enter the prostitute world at a very young age. They have no choice. They have to survive. Some of them jail themselves in sadness without smiles. They try to make their own world. Some of them became depress or did suicide.

In other side, many of them still strong and continue their live seems like never happens. Many of them became success and help other orphans. Many of them try to smile although they are crying inside.

            So what should we do? How to make them keep smiling and survive? How to make them became great person?

            We need to support their heart and their life.

            If we not rich enough, we could support their heart and mental. We can make them laugh and cheer up their spirit. If we have enough money, we could share some of them to support their education. We also could some of our things, such as used-books, clothes, and toys to them. We also could teach them anything we know or give them opportunity to work part time and improve their skill.

            In Indonesia, more than 150,000 children live in the street and 10% of them are under 5 years old (baby). More than 2,000,000 children have to work as labors with under-minimum payment and more than 70,000 children in prostitution world.

            In this world, there are more than 200,000 orphans and 150 million street children.

            After tsunami disaster on 26 December 2004, more than 8 thousand children in Aceh became orphans. More than 2 million children starving and about 1,500,000 children became orphans in Iraq because of the war. The orphans in Afghanistan increased from 35,000 to 2 million children because of the war too. And in Africa, more than 40 million children lost their parents because of AIDS.

            Nobody wants to lose his or her parents. Nobody wants to orphans. But sometime life is no choices. The condition and situation forces some children lose their parents.

            Losing our beloved is something hard and not easy to forget. Maybe time will help, but never able to eliminate the emptiness side because of losing our love. Especially, when someone lose his or her parents. Age cannot be an indicator of the sadness. Because it always the same. Anyone will feel the same sadness when his or her loves pass away. No matter they are kids or adults. Of course, for kids, life became more difficult and harder than adult. Because the children are too young to support their life and to survive compare with adults.

            If you still have your parents, please meet them, hug and kiss them. If you live far away from them, please call them or send them a letter. Please express your gratefulness and love before it will be too late. Please ask your parents forgiveness or do something that could make them happy. Do it know or you would regret it.

            If your parents had pass away, you also still able to express your love to them by praying or send your prayers to them. Be a good one and make your parents proud of you. They had gone, but their loves still here. You are their love. Please make them proud of you and do not regret you’re born. Never give up and make your entire dream come true. Proof to them that you still survive and the best one. You can do it.

            Many orphans and poor children still need our help. Let’s do something! Now! We have to open a door to a bright future to them. Just do something. A small thing also has a great meaning for them.

            Three weeks ago (August 1- 17), I join Ashinaga International Summer Camp (SC) in Tokyo, Yamanaka-ko, Aso-Kyushu and Kobe. This is my 3^rd time to join as an interpreter for the children from Aceh and Yogyakarta.

            Ashinaga (www.ashinaga.org) is one of Japanese Non Profit Organization (NPO) who supports the orphanages education and mental care. Summer camp is one their mental support programs.

            Ashinaga started SC every year in the summer (only 2005 in the winter) since year 2000 or five years after Great Hanshin (Kobe) earthquakes. This year was the last SC. Ashinaga invited 103 orphans (elementary school to senior high school students) from 18 countries to come to Japan and join summer camp with Japanese orphans (senior high school and university students). The orphans lost their parents because of war (Iraq, Afghanistan), terror (New York, USA), because of hurricane (New Orleans), earthquakes (Taiwan, Turkey, Columbia, Algeria, India, Iran, Pakistan & Yogyakarta), because of tsunami disaster (Banda Aceh, Sri Lanka, Thailand and Malaysia) and because of diseases and AIDS (Uganda and Nigeria).   

            During the SC, they play together, sharing, walking and became ‘tomodachi’ (friends). Sharing time is the hardest one. Not everyone can be easily sharing his or her sadness and painful feeling. It is very hard to re-tell again about your lose. Especially when they lose because of something unexpected, like war, terror or disaster. It is very difficult to share the memory that you want to forget with others.

            But, it will be easier when you do with people who had same experiences of background. They know how your pain, they know well how your feeling and emptiness. Sharing make you became more relax. Although you just a listener, you could learn something from the other stories. You know that you are not alone. Many of others have the same pain as you. Some of them have to face harder life than you.

            That what Ashinaga wants from SC. Orphans supported other orphans. By offering a friendship, the border of different countries, background, cultures, religions, languages, color, can be broke. Everybody became as one, a big family and friends.

            “Tomodachi ni naru tame ni, hito wa de aun da yo..

            友達になるために人はで会うんだよう。。。

            Orang-orang bertemu untuk menjadi teman

            People meet to be friends

            That is a small part of Ashinaga Theme Songs: Tomodachi (Friends). This song has deep meaning. I love this song words.

            I had joined SC for 3 times. I can see a good change among the children I accompanied. They became more expressive and cheerful. Their spirits cheer up.

            I think it is very important for them. The mental supports make them trying to stand up and continue their lives. But it is not enough. They still need a follow up to continue their study and daily life.

            Before go back to their own country, the participants wrote their hopes in a origami paper, and they also wrote a composition about their problems and imagination if they became a country or world leader.

            Most of them hope there are no more wars, conflicts, and terror. They hope that people of the world will pay more attention and support the orphans around them. They hope the orphans could continue their study and happiness the same as other children. They hope that they can have lots of friends and keep smiling…

            Most of their problems is about economy, education, and mental. They have to work to survive. They do not know how to continue their study to highest level since they have no money and no parents. They still feel emptiness and sadness although they are in crowded places. Their relatives took their parents wealth. They do not have place to stay. They still live in fear ness due to the war and conflicts in their neighborhood.

            If they could be a president, prime minister, leader of their country or leader of the world, they will pay more attention to orphans and children. They will build them a house to stay, place to play, support their education and make them smile. They plan to make the orphans live in happiness.

            Ashinaga will bring their messages to United Nation on September 2007. So, the world will know, what the orphans hopes and dreams. Last year, SC resulted a book of 100 orphans dreams.

What Ashinaga did is very good. I imagine, if many organizations pay more attention to the children and orphans, this world will be better.

            In Kyoto, The Association of Indonesia Student in Kyoto (PPI-Persatuan Pelajar Indonesia Komisariat Kyoto) performs The 12^th Indonesian Night. This annual is to promote and show Indonesia cultures to Japanese in Kyoto areas. All the performers (traditional dancers, traditional music, etc) are Indonesian Student and family in Kyoto. More than 200 people come to see this event. The money from the ticket and the benefit of this programs will be send to Indonesia to support education of poor children.

            Being orphans are not ashamed. Being orphans are not the ends of the world. Being orphans don’t mean that you have no future or no more happiness. No! Everything is depends on you. Happiness is in your hands. What do you need to do is keep walking and grab it. Do not let sadness take away your happy future. You are not alone. You have many friends in every side of the worlds. So, keep smiling and never give up. Make our parents proud of us. We can do something for ourselves and for people around us. Just start it now and smile. So the world will smile to you.

            Friendship, smiles, loves and hugs could bring their happiness and smiles.

            Do you have ones? Why do not share it to the children and orphans around you? They are waiting for you!

            There are many ways to do to support our children to get their bright future. What you need to do are spending a little of your time and money for them. I believe, you know how to do it. So, what we are waiting for? Let’s bring a rainbow to them and be their tomodachi. Smile!!!

(Kyoto, 21 August 2007)

for Y (your loves stay forever)

kaukidungkan gending biru tua

dengan irama dan kata-kata yang belum pernah

kudengar sebelumnya

satu nafas, lembut menyentak

mengingatkanku pada tadarus malam-malam kemarin

yang terdengar dari balee-balee

hingga saur menjelang

langit malam di atas selasar rumahku

mengintip diam-diam

bersama angin

dan kurasakan badai mengobrak-abrik

seluruh darah

"mari lanjutkan pertempuran ini

sampai perang pun kehilangan arti

dan kita kehilangan diri sendiri

atau sama-sama menyusun kepingan-kepingan itu

menjadi sebuah hati"

bisikmu sambil hentikan pengembaraan

dan menghapus sisa-sisa jarak

"aku hanya ingin rumah tempat membaringkan penat

dan merenda esok

aku hanya ingin rumah untuk pulang

dan bercerita bersamaamu”

ada bara memerahi bulan

tapi aku tetap terperangkap dalam dingin

yang kubuat sendiri

kurasakan malam tidak memihakku

tidak padamu

tidak pada siapa-siapa

(continue)

Wina SW1

DIALOG HUJAN

Hening menyimpan gejolak yang bergemuruh

di sudut yang tak tersentuh

mengapa kita harus menyulut bara

bila tak ingin nyalanya

membakar sepuluh purnama

dua ratus sembilan puluh sembilan matahari

2007

Are you single?

WinaSW1

“Are you still single?

How old are you?”

Ouch, you are not married?”

“You are 37 and not married? How could? Come on, girl! No kidding! I already have 3 children at your age!!”

“Oow… my dear class-mate, do you know, my daughter will study at university this year!”

“What are you looking for, girl? When will you get married?”

“What is wrong with that guy? Why do you reject his propose?” “What are your criteria? Do not set standard so high!”

“Let’s me introduce you to someone. He is good enough for you. He is gentle, kind, bla bla bla…”

You are thirties now. What are you waiting for? Do you know it is not easy to find someone for your age? Do you want a younger one? How about a widow gentleman? We want to see our grandchildren, so do not reject his proposal. Do you want to live alone forever, honey? Am I not good enough for you? Bla bla bla….

If you are a woman, over 30 years old and do not get married yet, you will face similar questions wherever you go. Sometimes people look at you curiously. Some of them will ‘discuss’ about you directly or behind you. Some people will question you or they will offer you many solutions and suggestions.

And if you life in a village, as a perawan tua (old-virgin girl) they will look at you like you have something wrong and they will make you as a ‘model’ when they persuade their daughters to get married soon. Your friends, family or relatives, try to introduce you to many ‘good’ guys. They will arrange someone to you. Sometimes, they forced you to accept it, neither has you wanted it or not. They will give you many reasons that make you feel guilty to reject.

What they want is…find someone for you and make both of you getting married. If it happened, they feel very happy. After the wedding party finished, it will be up to you. They finished their duty. It is your life; all the responsible for next step will be yours. Your new story will be started. It is not easy to be a single woman over 30, especially when you live in a community who care so much about each other. It becomes more complicated and more difficult if most of everybody know you. As a public figure, you will receive many curiosities. Sometime it will create a pressure.

So what will you do? Will you hiding in a place where nobody can meet and question you? So, nobody will find and care about you. Will you angry to God and people around you? Will you run-away from it by forcing yourself work harder then usually? Will you pretend you already married or have someone? Will you grab anybody to be yours? Or you still face it normally and continue your life? And why did you do this way? How long you will hide and for what purposes?

Hiding in a place where nobody can find you. It is also means you are hiding from yourself and your happiness. You are afraid to face the fact, so you run away. So, your happiness also will run away from you, too. By hiding, you will lose many great chances to change your future. You will always in the same world, in the darkness and loneliness. How stupid and cruel you are. You punished yourself like a prisoner. Put your own life in darkness like no way out.

What is the benefit will you get if you blame the God or people around you about your faith? Will your anger make you become better? Will your fate change? What’s wrong with them? Why your blame them only because you cannot have a spouse? Is it because they already found their soul mate and you do not yet? Do they do something to you? Do they make you cannot find your soul mate and not getting married until now? Is it because of them? Or you are angry to them because they always questioned you? Or maybe you feel jealous of their happiness? So why do not you create your own happiness?

Why God is become a victim of your disappointed feeling? Is it because God created you and put you in this kind of life? Is it because you think that God not treated you well? Do you think God treat you unfairly? Or the fact is…you not thank to the God that already created someone special for you.

He is somewhere now but you cannot reach him because you do not try hard to find him. You are busy to blame others about your fate. You have no time to think it clearly and set your way to get your luck. By run away and sink yourself in your work, will your fate change? Yeah, you will improve your job skill and level. Maybe you will go to the top of your career. But will it change your private life? Will it kill your loneliness and make you find a solution?

You just runaway and forget to open your eyes to see how a great opportunity offer you a way to get something else. Pretending that you have somebody that you don’t, it is only make you a liar. You are lying to yourself and people around you. You will get an artificial happiness but not the real ones.

Why are you pretending? Is it to make people impress or to make you look better? Do you feel better, do you look better, do people impress of you because of what you have done? How about yourself? How do you feel inside your heart? Are you happy? People do many ways to face this problem.

I do not understand, why many women choose to run away or hiding or pretending to face the fact of not getting married yet? Why do not they just life normally and face everything with confidence? Yeah, everyone is not the same. But one you should remember that whatever you do, people would always judge you or give comments about you. You are married or you are not married, people will always have something to comment about.

Everybody wants to life normally. People born, enjoy the young-aged, fall in love, get married, have children and life happily ever after. But the way of life of every people is not the same. There are not all people get lucky and find their spouse easily. Some people only need a few times to fall in love and get married. Some people spend a long time to be somebody lover before they become husband-wife. Some people have to change spouse many times until they found the one. Some people getting married with people they do not love. Some of us are getting married just because everybody has to get married. Some people getting married but then get divorce. Some people decided not to get married for many reasons. Some people want to get married, but they cannot find their spouse.

Where are you? Do you already find your soul mate and life happily ever after? Do you already have a happy family, with pretty kids? Congrats! How about you? Do you get married with someone you don’t love? Do you get married only because you have to? Do you still in the progress to be somebody wife? Do you run away from the real world and decide not to get married?

Or you are like me? You are still alone because you do not find your spouse yet? Are you ashamed because you are too old to get married and you are not married yet? Or you do not care about it? Why do not you just enjoy your life? Getting married or not getting married is not a sin! You do not need to feel shy or loss your self-confidence because of it.

Your life will not end only because you are single at thirties. There are many other good things and opportunities that can make you happy. Just wake and grab it! Do not let time pass with emptiness. You can fill all your time with happiness. No matters you are single, married or divorce. Do not punish yourself and jail your heart in darkness. You can shine your life if you want.

Take a mirror and look at your self! Who are you? How are you looking like? What do you want to be? Look! How many great things do you have? What is your potential? What are your positive things? Are you pretty, smart and sexy? Or you feel you are not pretty enough, you are not sexy enough, and you do not have anything that makes you proud or confidence? Do not make any judgments before you explore yourself.

Nobody’s perfect. But everybody has something special inside himself or herself. God creates us with different patterns and potentialities. No matter who you are, everybody is special. Nobody’s same, even though the twins. It is what make human unique.

Try to explore yourself. Do not ever underestimate yourself. It is only will make you lost self-confidence. Try to find your positive and negative things. Improve your positive things and reduce the negative ones. What is your best thing? What people love about you? Keep it!

What people do not like about you? What do you hate about yourself? Eliminate and control it. Do not make it tied you in unexpected world. If you could manage everything, you should control your pride. It is better to keep low profile with high performance.

It is time to start a new life. Please find the bad and the good side of yours, and then manage them. You have to try to reduce your bad things and improve your positive sides. It is not easy, but you can do it step by step. I am trying to imply it to myself. Because I found, I had so many bad sides that I have to correct.

Every normal people want to have somebody. It is natural. As a normal woman, I have the same expectation. I want to have somebody beside me. I had passed a long journey to find him, but I still cannot find him yet. And I still cannot find the reason why.

There are so many good men around me. Some of them offered their heart to me. Some of them want to be my guard and protected me. Some of them want to share his whole life with me. Am I too perfectionist? No. I am not a perfect woman. I am just and ordinary girl. But, I do not mind to make them disappointed by rejected their proposals.It is not because I am better than them. No!

For me, it is better to say no than trying to accept them. I have no feeling to them. I cannot pretend that I like them only because I am afraid to make them disappointed. There is nothing wrong with them. Most of them are almost perfect. Some people around me think that I will be very lucky if I accept one of them. It is not because I underestimate or feel better than one of them.

Never! I like them as friends but not as a lover. I cannot change my feeling. I try to figure out, why I can love them. Some of my friends (girls) almost dying to be their one. I just find that I am not in love with. And I do not want to be with somebody I do not love. No matter how great he is. I want to be with somebody I can share with and make me feel ease. I want to do the same thing for him.

I am 37 now and I am still alone. I want to get married, have a great husband and pretty kids. But I do not know when it becomes real. Maybe it is too late for my age. But, I believe, I will made it.

In the village sides in my country, women at my ages already have teenager kids or ready to prepare her daughters wedding. I am still alone.hehe…

Yeah.. sometimes I feel something empty and missing inside me. But I do not want to put myself in a cage and spending my time only to think about it. It is only make me weak and loss other chances. Time never wait for anything. I do not want to loss other happiness only because I cannot get this one. I believe, God have a great plan for me.

Maybe there are so many things that I have to do and manage before I share my life with my family. My single jobs are not finished yet. Maybe God wants me to enjoy my single life longer than other else. Who knows? What I know is, just continue my life, try to do many great things, get and create my own happiness and share it to people around me.

Life is too short, so why don’t we fill it with something great as much as possible? Enjoy your single time. Maybe you are luckier than married women. You still have much time to do what do you like, go anywhere, manage your own live. You do not need to discuss or think if you want to go somewhere or to do something. Enjoy your time alone while you are searching your charming prince! He will find you! Just be ready!

Yeah, I am 37, single, but I enjoy my time. I believe, I will find Mr. Right in the future. It is only about time. While waiting for him, why do not fill our live with many great thinks. Think that how lucky we are because we have many great chances to explore ourselves.

Maybe, God still give us an opportunity to share to the world, to enjoy our individual time. So do not be sad. Wake up, girl! Happiness is waiting for you. Go and grab your happiness! Cheer your life up and be ready for the ones!

(Kyoto, June 2006)

(by WINA SW1)

Ialah yang membangunkan hari

dari lelapnya

menggerakkan kita untuk segera bangkit

mengayunkan langkah dan bekerja

melahirkan karya dan sejarah

ialah yang membagikan cahaya

dan memancarkannya ke segenap penjuru

agar gelap tak lagi pekat dan hati tak lagi sesat

agar kebodohan tak lagi meraja

agar kita dapat bercermin pada  kebenaran

ialah yang menghantarkan panasnya

mencairkan kebekuan

dan mengusaikan dingin

yang telah pucatkan hidup

sehingga sering kita lupa pada diri sendiri

ialah yang menghangati bumi

sampai ke dasarnya

mematikan kebusukan yang ada

membiarkan benih tumbuh, mekar dan berbuah

sehingga kita tak lapar di tanah sendiri

tak kehilangan warna di antara pelangi

ialah yang menarik tirai malam

dan bersembunyi di baliknya

ketika hari usai

agar penat tak hancurkan kita

ketika terlalu lama bertahta

dan lupa bahwa waktu dan kodrat

selalu ada batasnya

ialah yang selalu memberikan sinarnya

agar esok kembali hadir

bersama serangkai cerita

dari anak-anak kita

ialah matahari

yang selalu terbit di timur dan tenggelam di barat

sahabat, yang tak pernah ingkari janjinya.

(Beurawe, 12 Februari 1999)

Wina SW1

Perempuan-perempuan pantai

nasibnya bagaikan ombak yang menepi

dan menyatu dengan ribuan pasir

menggantungkan hidup p

ada lubang-lubang karang kecil dan tajam

serta pasang surutnya laut

(o, ombak-ombak, sentuhlah karangku

agar tajamnya tak lagi lukai tanganku

o, ombak-ombak menepilah

jangan biarkan pasir-pasir kering dibakar matahari)

perempuan-perempuan pantai

senantiasa menghiasi malam

dengan doa dan harap

bagi lelaki mereka yang melayari ombak

menerjang badai

dan menjaring nasib di lautan lepas

(o, ombak-ombak, jangan biarkan badai menarikanmu

tenangkanlah gelombangmu saat jala menyentuh dalammu

o, ombak-ombak, gelombangkanlah kasihku

agar malam tak kosongkan hatinya)

perempuan-perempuan pantai

adalah karang tegar

di antara tepisan gelombang

panas matahari dan terpaan angin

menantang laut, hari dan nasibnya

(o, ombak-ombak, teruslah merapat ke pantaiku

biar buihmu tetap mewarnai hatiku)

salam akhir ramadhan!

tak terasa, kita telah lintasi sekian waktu
ada banyak bahagia dan kebersamaan tercipta
dan kusyukuri semua itu

namun, di antaranya, juga tak terbilang
betapa kataku yang mungkin menggores hatimu
khilafku yang membuat sesak dadamu
tingkahku yang membakar darahmu
walaupun sulit, tetap kupinta kerelaanmu
dan maafmu agar bisa memutihkan
segala yang menodai persaudaraan kita

agar kita bisa lengkapi Idul Fitri ini
dengan raga dan jiwa yang putih

mohon maaf lahir dan batin
semoga Allah swt mengampuni dosa-dosa
dan menerima amal ibadah kita semua.
amin

salam fitrah dari Kyoto
–
(Wina SW1)

Wina SW1

We named it farewell

Since the border and space

Show among us suddenly

We named it farewell

Since it closing one part

Ending a story in a place

Without dialogue

We named it farewell

Because we will not be together anymore

In this place

Like yesterday, we walked, communicated,

Crying, laughing and build stories

Together

It is farewell

no need to cry

because, a new tomorrow will come

welcoming you

in a new place with a new story

Because it is farewell

whatever it will be

it never able to separate our heart and feeling

Though a space between us

but the past that we created together

will never ending

: memories and friendship

Farewell, my friends

We will be together again

in once upon a time in the future

at one place in somewhere

in one circumstances

(Kyoto 4 April 2005)

Kita sebut ia perpisahan

Kita sebut ia perpisahan

karena tiba-tiba di antara kita

ada batas dan ruang

kita sebut ia perpisahan

karena ia selalu akhiri suatu babak

menutup sebuah cerita pada sebuah tempat

tanpa kompromi

kita sebut ia perpisahan

karena setelah ini, kita tak bersama

di sini, seperti kemarin

melangkah ,bertukar sapa, menangis,

tertawa dan menjalin kisah

bersama

inilah perpisahan,

maka tak perlu tangisi ia

karena esok sebuah awal baru menanti

sebuah pertemuan

dalam kisah yang berbeda

di tempat yang berbeda

karena perpisahan,

seperti apapun ia,

takkan mampu memisahkan hati dan rasa

di antara kita

walau kini ada jarak,

namun apa yang pernah kita rajut bersama

akan terus ada dalam hati selamanya:

sebuah kenangan dan persahabatan

selamat jalan, sahabatku!

kita akan bersama lagi nanti

pada suatu masa

kita akan bersama selalu

dalam ingatan dan doa

(Kyoto, 4 April 2005)

Wina SW1

I am flying to catch my olden times

in a site where we shelter our love

nowadays always steal me back

detain me in a garden of his heart

and persuades me in his word

“just take my white tender and walk beside me to a world

where we can grow our loves!”

whenever I flee, he sending a bunch of smiles

put me into a corner

: You with all the memories and him with hopes of tomorrow

(Beijing, May 2006)

Dilemma

Terbanglahku meraih hari-hari lampau

tempat kita menyimpan cinta

hari ini selalu kembali mencuriku

memenjarakanku dalam taman hatinya

dan memabukkanku dalam rayuannya

“terimalah tawaran putihku dan berjalanlah di sisiku

ke dunia tempat kita menyemai cinta!”

setiap kumenjauh, ia kirimi aku setumpuk senyum

dan mengembalikanku pada simpang yang sama

: Engkau dengan segala kenangan

dan dia dengan seluruh harap untuk esok

(Beijing, Mei 2006)